“There are a few things I haven’t told you, and before you hear them from someone else, to clear up misconceptions, I’d rather tell you myself…There was a time…” Bonus points if you know this reference.
Ok, there are some things I haven’t told you, but I don’t really have the time to write every day all day long either, and you would just get bored after a while anyway. This, though, might be interesting.
One thing I haven’t mentioned is that my Sciatic nerve has been wreaking havoc on my back and hip for the last two weeks, to the point where I’ve been on my back with ice and lots of stretching. It hasn’t been the most fun, but, as I have come to accept that these types of things are Spirit’s way of getting my attention, I’m doing my best to take it all in stride.
A week or so ago, I decided that all the stretching and ice in the world may not make a difference if I didn’t ask for help in understanding what was happening. The sciatic nerve is an interesting part of the body. It has to do with issues in the back, the hip and the nervous system. So, we can conclude from this that there is an issue that I don’t want to acknowledge (back), about my movement in life (hip), and the way in which I express or communicate said issue (nerves), which clearly has to do with my spiritual self (left side of the body).
Having practically exhausted all of my options in alleviating the pain with ice, rest, stretching, even Vicodin that a friend gave me, and still finding no relief, I thought the best thing to do would to be to ask the why’s and the what’s of my circumstance. After some thought, it seemed the only way to do this would be to go “into” the pain, sit with it, and ask it why it was there.
I decided to meditate of all places in the car while my roommate and I were running some errands together. She was driving, don’t worry, I wasn’t practicing unsafe meditation practices.
What I was looking for was not exactly what I received, but like Mick Jagger said, I got just what I needed.
Sitting inside the pain, I simply kept asking it to let go over and over again. Suddenly there was a voice of sorts.
I’ve heard things before audibly, and while this wasn’t that kind of conversation, I was definitely being spoken to. It was like Esther Hicks and Abraham, in that the “voice” referred to itself as “we”.
I was told things such as, and again I paraphrase:
“Don’t worry, we are doing this. You must be patient, as this will pass, but you must trust that we have it under control. You are going through big transitions, and this is part of your transformation. As you change, movement will be difficult, very difficult, and, at times, practically impossible. We are watching over you. Be patient. On the other side of this is a freedom of movement that you have yet to experience in this lifetime.”
I heard it, and I understood the message, but Spirit wasn’t quite finished yet. “They” wanted to give me a visual also.
In my mind’s eye, I saw a huge block slowly rotating, floating in the air before me. Suddenly, it began to break down into thousands of tiny little blocks. The tiny blocks began moving, slowly at first, then they began to pick up speed. The entire block was transforming into something else, and the block itself was initiating the change. It kind of reminded me of the AllSpark from Transformers, if you’re into that sort of thing. (Guilty pleasure!)
I didn’t see the complete transformation of the block because that wasn’t the point “they” were trying to make. They wanted me to see how difficult and/or impossible movement could be under such a tremendous shift. I thanked “them” for the insight and the meditation was over.
The pain, however, wasn’t, and still isn’t over. A few days after that, I decided to try meditating again, but “they” were not interested in re-hashing what had already be discussed. Spirit had a new message for me.
Spiritual Satori 